i met a cat here in the desert who was owned by someone ive never met
i get the impression he was alot like me in ways ill never know
he was a friend of the people here and died over the summer
this cat has taken a liking to me and his name is greg
a snuggly orange cat
this cat makes me so happy
when i feel all alone he finds me
and his meows are so sweet


i think about the fact that im a dyke and all the transwoman ive fallen in love with
i think about the way ive been isolated and abused
i think about the part of me that dies when i smoke
i think about the black mold rot in the rooms now left untouched
i think about the abandoned van full of his stuff
and then i smother my cigarette with my boot
another soul abandoned and left incohesive
i won't let it be
i honor his spirit within me and i leave a shrine
i give greg a home in my space and make sure his needs are met
nobody can deny me my identity and my right to grieve