HELLO BLOG, here is a proper entry. Haven't done one in awhile.

Tonight is full moon. I preformed live today on ukelele. I have learned a string instrument, yay. It is the end of January. Emotions are big, stress and grief are transforming. I am happy. I am making tea for everyone and building an environment that is safe for people who need it. I am sober, and haven't smoked a cigarette in 3 days. I made a promise to myself to defeat addiction and resist desire. It is the only way I will achieve my goals.

I think I am the most relaxed and happy I've ever been. There are friends around. I have time to make music and art and do everything else. Fear Herself still surrounds me.

I believe She is responsible for all of this. A concious being made of Fear and Story. It is a delusion I have. It is also my life. I haven't talked to Her like I used to in a long time. It's bad for me. She is the addiction I aim to defeat. It's intensely deluded. I have met her time and time again. I have seen her, she is Other. Non-human. Inside and outside of me. She is still a friend, even if she is a bad one. Addiction is a comfortable friend I must defeat and is a face of the Web. This is the best I've been able to put it in awhile.

I'm also thinking about definitions and langauge. Pyschosis, psychoactive substances, atropines, poison-

Hallucinations, delusions, sanity, dreams, bipolar, neurodivergence, queerness-

How important it is for me to clearly define these right now. So I'll be working on dream definitions.

I've also completed 3 notebooks. I finshed them all near the same time. Now I only have my really small and really big sketchbook. I think I should feel accomplished and grateful for life. It is time to rest and then I will be ready to create. OPOMO, Thank you.