dream update

My dreamwork recently has been more in the background of everyday life. I have been having seizures of some kind. I'm not sure if they are diabetic or psychotic-related.

My dreams have been very clear regular processing, with the absurd attributes expected from the dream space. It's characters and dynamics. It is these spaces with structures made out of my memory and imagination. These spaces fill with people I have seen before or have yet to see. Conversations take up the night, and different situations I will find myself reennacting.

Memories will cross between themselves creating something entirely new and absurd. False memories appear in this state of dreaming, only being remembered once fully reimmmersed into a waking state. A brief flash that never happened. These sorts of false memories will repeat themselves, loop over, cross into different days, leaving me questioning where they even come from. I can visualize it as a wave, traveling in a line throughout waking reality. When our eyes close and our conciousnesses rest, this wave representing time falls. The dream behaves like a chaotic pendulum, time and memory crossing and looping and twisting. In the morning, the tide washes over.

There is rhythm to memory. In everyday life, rhymtic memory takes over to complete tasks and projects, or to endlessly scroll. This rhythm repeats through out dreams. A rhythm of thought and memory. This rhythm is so unreliable. Some part of us rewrites this memory all the time because it is as permanent as wave through the sea. What is happening within this function? How does this dictate the sensory output that appears in our dreams?

Art is how I represent rhythm and movement. Paper is where I organize my thought. When I draw long enough I dream of the rhythm of my hands to my fingertips to the paper. Hypothetically, I can dream of anything I am able to put on paper.

Animation is where I am free

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